Should I be ashamed of myself?

I must admit it is not easy. Quit smoking, I mean. The temptation is always there. Everyday. Sometimes I manage to over power it sometimes I failed.

It is not easy ya know, when it has rule your life for more than 20 years, and it has flow in your blood stream, and circulating in every organs in my body.

I have to give credit to myself and my will power but I am only human. 2 nights ago,..I treated myself with one cigarette. Hubby was not delighted about it and I had to respect him for that. I stepped off the bed and finshed my cigarette in the bathroom.

Should I be ashamed of myself?